Thursday, February 24, 2011


I really want a button for my blog. Can anyone please tell me how to do it or make one for me:) You would make this unhappy chick a very happy one at least for a little bit.......Thanks:) 

Wednesday, February 23, 2011


I know I haven't written in like forever. This month has been extremely rough for  me. The doctor put me off work for a few weeks and put me on some new meds. I wish I could say that I feel good as new. I don't. Most days, I do not even want to get out of bed much less deal with life. Everything that could be going on is. My blazer blew up two weeks ago. It gave no warning, was running great and than all of the sudden BAM!! Just my luck, I should be getting used to it, right? Sam moved back out and back in with her x's parents, so that part of the stress has been lifted. I miss my sunshine though. I at least knew that I had something to smile about every day when she was here. Tori is due in two months. Her baby shower is in a little less than two weeks. Thankfully, I put the money aside for that. I took her for her Dr appt today and than to the mall and Party City. I felt good today. I even did my hair and put makeup on. The dr thinks that she might have gestational diabetes. We will know for sure next week. I got a few things for the shower at Party City and thankfully all I have to get now are the gifts for the games. Any ideas? I am not good with this sort of thing. Though I have had some help with some stuff for it. Its going to be great. I have a light bill due in a week 600.00 WTH? I have no idea how I am coming up with that money. I owe so many places money right now. I haven't even gotten one short term disability check yet. Maybe I am just being a wuss, maybe I just need to suck it up and learn how to go on about my life just like everyone else. I feel like I am suffocating, I do not even know who I am anymore.

I am so thankful that I started reading a blog called Band Back Together  It lets anyone post about things that have happened to them, things they are upset about, happy about etc. I recently shared something on there, that I have not shared with many people and I tell you what, It made me feel good. To just get it out there was  more therapy than I could have paid for. I am not the best writer, but I do plan on contributing more. If you haven't seen it, check it out. I am   really going to try harder to update. With the way I have been feeling and school, I just don't feel like doing much else. Hopefully it will keep getting better. Maybe when I win the lottery lol.