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Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Hump Day

Happy Hump day :) I know I am excited that in less than two days it will be a new year. God knows this year has been horrible for me. I am headed to bed but I can not wait till tomorrow so that I can write my changes post. I have been thinking about it all day. All the changes I am going to make in my life next year. Just wanted to pop on fast and say good night.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas 2010

I am so happy that this day is over. I normally love Christmas, but not this year. We have had such a run of bad luck and I have been so down that I just could not get into the spirit this year. I stayed up very late to clean the house. We got up about nine this morning to watch the kids open presents. I was not able to get them much, I think that's part of the reason I was so upset. I know that Christmas is about so much more than that but I like to make  my kids happy. Its amazing how fast kids change. My granddaughter last month at her first birthday party wanted  nothing to do with opening her gifts. Today she opened them like a pro, she took  her time and fully inspected what she got. We had to pry the toys away to get her to the next one or we would still be sitting there. After presents we all relaxed for a while. My step daughter and her boyfriend stopped over for a while. Its nice to see her happy and pregnant. Our relationship has not been the same for a long time. That's a subject for another day. She is having my first grandson. Braydon Michael. I totally love that name. After their visit we went to moms for dinner. It was nice but Troy was not feeling well so we were only there for a couple of hours. Since Delilah was at her dads for a couple of hours I am going to bring her to moms in the morning for her to open her gifts. My daughter and her x have decided to try shared custody. We had her all this week and he will take her tomorrow until next Sunday. I am going to miss her. It seems like all I do anymore is stress though. I worry about how Sam is taking care of her, if she gets fed ...the list goes on. Next Friday Sam is moving out and moving into an apartment with three of her friends. One of the girls has a baby and one on the way. I am already worried.  I always thought the older the kids got, the easier it would get. How wrong I was. I wish we could go back to the days of playing barbies and coloring.
I hope everyone had a great Christmas and Santa brought you everything you wanted!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

One of Delilah's Christmas dresses

No matter how bad my life seems all I have to do is look at this little girl and all my troubles go away if even just for a little bit.

A year in review sorta

2010 has by far been a horrible year in so many ways. There were good things that happened don’t get me wrong, but the bad out weighed the bad. I have been blessed with a beautiful granddaughter. What a personality that she already has already. This year I went back to school and while it has been challenging and some days sucks, I do like it. It  makes me proud of myself. I have been getting for the most part good grades. I never got grades like this while I was in high school. Troy and I got remarried this year with our kids there with us. For most of 2010, I was unemployed and I did finally get a job in September. I like my job and all that I am learning. Though I can say all the things I need to study for work to pass my state and federal tests, is very hard on top of my regular school things. The biggest issue this year of course was money. After not working for so long it is taking a while to dig out of the hole. Every time I think it is getting better something goes wrong. This month alone, my blazer needed over a thousand dollars worth of work done to it, my furnace has broken down two times and so many other things. I have faith that 2011 is going to be a better year. If I have to I will get a second job and I will get my motivation back for school. I have to get myself out of this funk and realize all of the beautiful things in this life. The little things I take for granted. My kids are healthy and no matter what I love them. I have a roof over my head and I do have a  job that I like. I have a great husband that no matter how much he frustrates me sometimes, we are good together. I have an amazing grandbaby and two more on the way.
Sometimes I wish I could go back to the simple days. The days where Troy was still healthy and I was able to stay home with the kids. We did not have much but we also did not have many bills.
Anyway enough moaning. I had off today and slept in a bit. I than took Tori and Delilah to work with me for my cookie exchange. Ive never done one before but what a great idea. Since I work in a small office I only had to make 8 dozen cookies and came home with 8 dozen different kinds. My favorites were the snicker-doodles and the potato candy. Two more days of work and than off for three. Even though I can not get much for the kids, I love my family and being with them is worth more than anything else.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Happy Birthday Pickle

We had Delilah’s 1st birthday party this weekend. She had a great time. I will post about it tomorrow.

Right now I am sleepy and heading to bed. Working 8am to 9pm tomorrow is gonna suck.

I leave you with a pic of the birthday girl.

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Saturday, November 20, 2010

Its a girl

My daughter is on her way back from her 4D sonogram and its a girl. I am very excited to have another granddaughter. We are surrounded by girls.  I still have not told my father about this pregnancy , I am terrified. I am not the happiest in the world about it but being negative is not going to make it go away. I might as well embrace it and think of it as everything happens for a reason. My step daughter is also pregnant and is having a boy, its sad that she and I do not have the close relationship we once did. My week went by way to fast. Took a few days off but did not get anything accomplished that I wanted to. Today my goal is to at least get all the laundry done and put away. I need a cleaning fairy, betwen work and school the house is the last thing on my mind.
The new puppy has taught Maggie how to tear up stuff. Maggie  used to be a good dog who never chewed up anything,. Now its like they have a competition to see who tears up the most stuff in a day.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Blogging Communites

I have been reading a few different sites that help not only build readership but help you become a better writer. Being a better writer will want people to come back. So there is a few that I really liked so far, The Lady Blogger Society is one and the other is The Sits Girls.
I can not wait to really get involved and learn some new things about writing and blogging. I really want to be more active in the blogging community. If anyone has any suggestions on how I can be better, I am very open to suggestions. More to come later......

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Hello Kitty Speakers

My mom actually found these speakers and with my love for Hello Kitty, I gotta have them. I also want the pink computer case and mouse and keyboard.

So cute  

This is on my Christmas list 
sad that a 35 year old loves pink so much lol






 
Off to run to the store, watch the race and do my midterms.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Bad Bad Me

Delilah's first Halloween
I know its been forever since I last posted. I am really going to try and change that. I mean I spend an enormous amount of time on the internet when I am doing school work. Five minutes out of my Farmville, umm I mean school work wont hurt me ..Right? Honestly I see stuff all the time, I would love to share with my readers. Well actually 1 reader but whose counting. I know I wont get any followers if I don't post. Nothing that new here, my job is going well. School is going. I still have a 3.8 GPA but I am tired. I have lost most of that OMG, I'm a college student high. It could also have something to do with the fact that I am working 10 to 12 hour days and when I get home all I can think about it my bed. I did go to my boss and ask to be put back on 8 hour days for my sanity. Things around here have been stressed to say the least. Money is tight, It always has been but I am trying to dig us out of the hole from being out of work for as long as I was. My electric bill is sky high and they do not negotiate much in terms of payment arrangements. Why would they, they know there is no where else to get electric from around here. This is the first year ever that I am not sure if we are having Thanksgiving dinner and Christmas, the thought of it brings me to tears.
My house looks like a tornado has come through it. This more than anything upsets me. I can deal with money issues but I hate coming home at night to what I have been. The new puppy is destructive, I know need to replace my couch as well as fix a wall. Oh and steam clean the carpets. The rest of the mess is just  my kids being lazy. They are not little anymore, and there is no excuse for it. Yes, I leave messes in my room but the one thing I can say is, I do not bitch much about their space. If they wanna sleep in a gross room than so be it.
On a brighter note, my granddaughter will be one in about a week. Man where has the time gone. She is very independent and has been walking for 3 months already. She has her mother and fathers temper and already acts like them lol. I went with them trick or treating and she was so much fun. I think I have mentioned it before but my other daughter is pregnant as well. This brings me to a whole other set of emotions and anxiety, but I will save that for another day.
Today is the day of my step-daughters baby shower. I am not going. The girls did decide to go. This was supposed to be a happy day for me but instead I am sad. Sad that her mother is now her biggest supporter, where was she her whole life? Sad that I was not asked to help with the baby shower and sad that she never comes around anymore. On top of the anger I have been feeling towards her to things she said when her dad and I were separated. Maybe I am being selfish, but this how I feel.

Our new puppy Molly taking a ride with Daddy
The new grandbaby I call it Noodle.
                                       Our new puppy Molly going for a ride with daddy!
                                           
Mimi's Girl
                                               
Lets go Trick or Treating !!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Cool Things

I know I said I was going to bed but not before I show you a site and some items I found on it that i want lol.
Check out the great products at World Wide Fred. Here's a few of my favorites.

How cute is this


I am always saying this
This would make it so much easier
lol 
whose kid doesn't love to lick the spoon?
Had the hubby in mind for this one and his love for pizza

Finally I have a job

I got the call today...I start tomorrow. I am so excited. I have been unemployed for 6 months. After what seems like a million resumes sent and a about a dozen interviews I finally landed the job I wanted. I had been offered a couple previously but they just were not what I was looking for. I wanted a job that I knew I could grow in and that was in the field I had experience in. I am going to be learning some new things and it is not going to be easy. Not only will I be in online college but I will be studying for work to pass a test. The starting pay is great and I will have benefits starting from day one. I had the interview about three weeks ago right at the time I was going to take a job with another company. I was confident in the interview. They told me a couple of days later I was their #1 candidate, I just had to wait for HR to call me and than getting the background check etc. I am excited but nervous at the same time. I guess it is always that way with a new job, Not really knowing what to expect and not sure how the people are. I hope Troy is up to running the kids around. I think he will do what it takes to help me because I can say the last six months as sucked. I am so sick of worrying how we are going to make all the bills and we were not able to do anything fun with the kids this summer.

Well I am off. Need to try and get myself on a better sleep schedule. 2 am is just not going to cut it anymore.

Also any of you smart people out there. As you can see I am not the worlds best writer. I would say I suck. I have a huge essay to write for school. Any tips would be greatly appreciated. My topic is why I think it is better to buy a home vs. renting. Give me your thoughts while your at it. Thanks:)

Oh one more thing. I rocked the kitchen today. I made apple oatmeal cinnamon cookies , applecrisp and stuffed peppers. We planted a apple tree five or six years ago and this was the first year it produced anything worth while. Did not want to see any of them go to waste. I still have about 10 more so it looks like I will be making more cookies this weekend. I am going to look for something a little differnt than I already did.
The peppers also came from the garden and wow did they come out yummy. I told Troy that was all my domestication for the year lol. Night all

xxoo S

Sunday, September 5, 2010

I do

On Friday, I remarried my best friend. We had a very small, very relaxed wedding with just us and the kids. I did not tell anyone but my closet friends that we were even planning on doing it. Simply because I know everyone has thier opionisn about our relationship. Quite frankly I did not want to hear anything negative. I wanted to do what I wanted to make me happy. I did get one negative thing of course from my mother. She text me and said "Did you do it yet, cause if not its not to late to change your mind". I told her yes we just had  and I have not heard from her since. The relationship with my mother and I to be  honest is not a simple one. Maybe one day I will forgive and forget the past. The weekend has been nice, Troy and I have just been relaxing at home. We are planning a short honey moon after I start working and things are a little better for us financially. I got both of my assignements for school done today. I knew that going back to school was not going to be easy, but its getting really hard and I am doubting my abiltity to keep up. So far  my grades are good but I can tell that is going to change in the next couple of weeks.

The granddaughter is spending the night, I just gave her a bath and she is already passed out. My wonderful daughter made us dinner. Summer spaghetti and Italian bread and for desert she made strawberry cupcakes and wow , was that good. She is even in the kitchen cleaning up. I wonder what she wants. She has already given me the bad news a couple of weeks ago, I can now handle anything. Well I off to try and read some for school. I hope everyone has a great Labor Day.

                      We are such opposite, I love to dress up and he loves his jeans.

                                         Getting ready to put the ring on my finger.
                                                              Smoochies :)
                                                      My beautiful family
                                                  Pappy and Grandma with Pickle
                                                                                             

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Wedding Bells

This coming Friday I am remarrying my x-husband.....We got divorced last June and back together in Oct. Who would have thought we were going to get back together and actually like each other lol....Things are going great. I could not be happier. We both learned some valuable lessons about life,ourselves and each other. We are going to have a simple ceremony in a little garden. The only people attending are our children and my granddaughter. Troy is a jeans kinda guy and well jeans is what he will get. I think I might just get a cute sun dress since its supposed to be hot. We went and got wedding bands yesterday. They are temporary since we are on the broke side and were not very expensive. I really like mine. I will take a pic later and post it. TA TA for now, I have done enough procrastinating about my homework, time to actually do it :)

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Better Day

Today I woke up with a much more positive outlook. I know that I need to be thankful that my family is happy and healthy and that I have been blessed with my beautiful children, granddaughter and the two grand babies on the way. I know that I did not do anything to cause my girls to get pregnant and I did all that I could in the ways of education and getting them put on the pill. I know I can not change the fact she is pregnant, I need to accept it and be happy. I need to be happy that even though my son has some issues, he is bright and healthy and smart and we will get through this.

I have six followers now:) that makes me so happy, it gives me a reason to write something everyday. I even got comments. That made my whole day, so thanks guys.

Today was a good day....Didn't do much, went and ran some errands. The guy my husband works for sometimes wife called me at 4 and asked me to take her and her dog to the doggie hospital so I didn't get home until 6:30 . Then I met mom for a cocktail and appetizer. I had fun and its amazing what an hour away can do. Delilah just woke up and Sam decided to give her a bath to soothe her and hope she goes back to sleep. I guess you know you are loved when you get peed on lol....Night night all

xxoo
S

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Back to School ( I wish)

All the kids start school tomorrow , all except my son. I know that he is having problems right now but part of me can't help to feel a little selfish. I want normal back. I do not want to deal with the therapists and the meds. Part of me feels like a failure, like this is all my fault. I guess I should explain. My son has always had some separation anxiety. In kindergarten we thought it was cute that he needed extra love from the teacher. Than he started having episodes. He would throw a fit when we took him to school, kicking, screaming and crying. In the early years, once he got into the school and settled he was fine. Sometimes we could go months with a normal happy Billy. As he got older , the episodes got worse, he had full out panic attacks. It would take my husband ( who is not a weak man) all he had to get him into the school. There were days, he spent the whole day in the office. Last year, we all had our breaking point. The panic attacks got so bad it would take him hours to recover. So, His doctor and I made the decision for him to be temporarily home-bound. The school has been a great and the teacher that comes to our home has been a gift from god. She has patience and she took the time this summer to see him once a week to get him caught up on math. We have come to realize that Troys mom getting sick and passing is one of the things that made Billy worse. He does not do well with change of any kind, and his home is his safe zone. The doctors and therapists are saying it is anxiety and depression. Though now there is a part of me that is thinking its more. He is very smart , loves his video games and to be honest not much more. When Billy has a conversation all he wants to talk about is his new game, or one he wants or something about it. Everything in life he compares to his games. They say he has ADD but yet he can sit on a game for hours and yet when his teacher is here he can not sit still or focus.  I feel like there is more they can do to help him. I wish I knew what to do. I know what your thinking, just take away the games. I just can't . I have tried and Billy is lifeless without them, he goes deeper into his shell and is just depressed. We have decided to put him in a few activities so he can get some socialization before we try to put him back into school. He has been in karate before so I am thinking that will be a start.

My life is just starting to feel like I have been nothing but one big mess up of a mother. Sam had her baby at 17, though I am proud she finished high school and is now in college. But there are so many other things about her situation that makes me want to scream. When I say anything to her, I am accusing her of being a bad mother/person so I just keep my mouth shut. And now my other girl is pregnant at 17. I have taught my girls about choices, about birth control, I even put them on birth control. I have talked to them until I am blue in the face about all the challenges I went through being a teen mother.

I am sick of being everyones taxi/housekeeper/cook. No one wants to help, no one wants to clean up after themselves. I am trying to keep the house going, keep Troy happy, my school work and looking for a job. Plus the doctor visits etc. Some days I feel like I am going to lose it.

I am sorry this is a post rambling. I just really needed to vent.

Night Blogger World

S

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Parenting

I have never claimed to be a great mother. Believe me, I know I am not. I will say the one thing that totally drives me nuts is parents who do not watch their children. I had company tonight and they had their three children with them. We cooked on the grill, it would have been nice had I not been doing everything for the kids. I got the plates of food ready, kept checking on them in the house and cleaned up after them when they were done. Billy did a really good job keeping them busy. Though when they left he sighed a huge sigh of relief. My girls were a year and a month apart and I am not lying when I say they were a handful to go anywhere with. The one thing I always made sure I did was to know what they were doing, where they were and got them everything they needed when we went visiting. Maybe things have changed, my kids are older and many of my friends children are little. I am not even sure I had the right to get frustrated over this. Maybe I am just overly tired today. 

On another note, I was supposed to go to a friends barbeque/birthday party for her daughter. Troy started to fix the roof on the building thinking it only needed to be patched up. Well....It ended up needing to be totally replaced. Ended up having to go to Lowes and we did not get done until 6. I did not have to do much to help other than get the big boards up to him and whatever else he needed while he was up there. With his knees and back the way they are, I did not want him to have to keep going up and down the ladder. I know she is upset with me, but by the time we got done I was so tired and our friends said they were gonna stop over and eat with us. I am sure she thinks I just blew her off when in actuality I did not at all. The more I try to explain myself, the more I just look like a jerk. So I said I was sorry, could tell by her respose she was not happy. I guess she will get over it....Who  knows anymore. 

I am off to bed. I have two assignments, a chapter to read and notes to take tomoroww that on top of laundry...YAY me.....

xxoo
S

Girly Girl

HIGH HEELS ON WHEELS: Girlier than Girly (GTG!): "- Sent using Google Toolbar"

So I have decided to turn my car into what I want it to be. I am not going to worry about the hubby not wanting to drive it. Pink is my favorite color. Yes, I am 35 years old and I do not care what any one thinks. Next time I have some extra money, I am going to start ordering my pink gear:) My car is a really pretty blue so I think pink will go well with it. Check out this website I linked.....Found everything I want on one page, how great is that! I promise a longer post later .

xxoo
S

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Kabukicho, Shinjuku, Japan Photo-Post

Kabukicho, Shinjuku, Japan Photo-Post: "- Sent using Google Toolbar"

This is one of my favorite sites. My dream is to one day be able to go to Japan, Tokyo and China.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Writing and such

I have been following a few blogs for what seems like forever. I only wish I could be witty, sarcastic or funny. Sadly my writing is kind of boring. In school I am in my first Comp class and unfortunately it is not really teaching me how to interesting. Yes, I am writing this for me but it would be nice to get a comment now and then.

Today was uneventful for the most part, I haven't really felt myself for the last couple of days. I am stressed out and the news I got is not making it any better. I realized tonight , it is never a good idea for me to take four days off of school. I logged on tonight and had over 100 posts to read in each class on top of my work and reading. This is the last week for this semester and I have a final to do at some point. Everyone told me that doing classes online was going to be so hard but to be honest I have really enjoyed it so far. I am averaging a 4.0 GPA . I keep saying WOW to myself because I sucked as a high school student. I could have cared less about school. I guess knowing that I will be paying for it makes all the difference.

I made breakfast for dinner tonight. The fam loves when I do this. We had bacon, eggs, sausage and french toast. Unfortunately my stomach has been killing me and I did not eat much. I am super tired tonight so I am off to dreamland......night night

Monday, August 9, 2010

09 | August | 2010 | I'm Just Walkin'

09 | August | 2010 | I'm Just Walkin': "- Sent using Google Toolbar"

This is one of my Favorite sites right now. I check in daily. This guys is walking a ridiculous amount of miles for really no reason other than to do it. Along the way he has ran into some very nice people. Good to know there are still those that will take you into their homes and feed you and let you shower. The pics he takes are gorgeous and sometimes tell a great story.

Monday Blahs!!

I really do  not know whats wrong with me today but boy do I have the blahs. I did not even touch my school work tonight. On a good note my appointment on Sat went great. The doctor said that the site has healed perfectly and that I do not need to come back for another year. One thing off my chest. My daughter went with me and treated me to Red Lobster for lunch. I haven't had that in a long time....I had some shrimp scampi and crab legs. I did get some news that well to say the least I am in shock. I will share sometime but just can not bring myself to do it yet. This week hopefully is the last week that I am off work, I have so much I want to accomplish. I want to paint the front door, side door and the garage door and the trim of the buildings. I also want to get to Lowes and find the paint I need  for the shutters. I think a nice barn red is going to make it look so nice. I am so sick of this blue. I know this is short tonight but I am tired and grouchy.....

Friday, August 6, 2010

So not looking forward to this

So about a year and a half ago I had skin cancer. Yes, I spent lots of years going to tanning beds and laying out in the sun. You would think that my skin cancer would of been in a place that the sun actually touched but no,leave it to me to get skin cancer in the weirdest of places. I had mine where a woman get an episiotomy when in child birth. For about two years I was misdiagnosed. One gyno said that it was a skin condition and loaded me up on creams and steroids. After about eight months I went to another doctor whos first words were , " You have herpes". To say I was livid is an understatement. He than tested me and realized I did not have that. Ummm Yeah, one little sore is not herpes, I looked it up. After a few more visits, I decided to dump him too. A friend than told me about her doctor, she said that he was amazing and to be honest he is. He hit the nail on the head on my first visit. He looked up at me , while looking and said I am not trying to scare you but we need to get this biopsied right away. He said he was 99% sure it was cancer. I was so scared and upset, I went back to work but was so shaken that they sent me home. The next day the doctor called personally and told me that what he thought was correct. He did tell me the type I had was common and that I needed to have surgery and as long as the cancer was not in my lymph nodes than I did not need any other treatment. He sent me to one of the best woman's cancer doctors in the area and I can honestly say those two doctors are the best doctors out there. Surgery went great and I did not have it in my lymph nodes though I was told I still had pre -cancerous cells in that area and I needed to be watched closely. It was a horrible recovery. Because of where it was mainly. My body rejected the stitches, I was only supposed to be out of work a week and it turned into 6 weeks. I had to go to a injury center every week to get packaged so to speak, I could hardly walk and my time at home was spent in bed with a fan blowing there. My son would knock on my bedroom door and say " Mom, cover your hoho I am coming in". At the same time my husband and I were going through the roughest part in our relationship. So I was going through this with no one really to lean on emotionally. Last June I l was laid off from my job and lost my insurance and I know it was horrible but I just haven't been back for my follow up appointments. Last week I received a letter from Dr. Rosenshein that stated that he was concerned that I have not been back and that it was very important I come in as soon as possible. I called the office and explained that I have not been working and Troy is only doing what he can, he is not supposed to work because of his health. They called me back the next day and the doctor lowered his doctor visit by 100.00 for me. I started to cry. I have basically labeled doctors as not caring and money grubbing and wow did his doctor prove me wrong. So tomorrow is the day, Tori is going to go with me and take me to breakfast afterward. I am scared to death to say the least. A million thoughts keep going through my mind, What if the cancer is back? What if I would need treatment this time? We are already struggling. I am trying to remain positive but sometimes it is so hard for me. If anyone lives in the MD, WV, VA area and needs a woman's cancer doctor I highly recommend Dr. Neil B. Rosenshein . He works out of Baltimore Md and Hagerstown MD. Well I am off to bed, night night. Wish me luck ......

Pickle

This is my granddaughter Delilah. Decided to give her a Mohawk the other day. She is outside having fun, I put water on one of our outside chairs and she played in it for about an hour. If only it was always this easy.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Skunks really stink

So we are up late as usual. Troy and I hang out in the garage, he either is piddling around with something while I do my homework.  About an hour ago he decided to let the dog out for the last time of the night. I heard Troy yelling and I ran out and he said that she had gotten sprayed by a skunk....Ugh I thought this is going to be a long night. She was running around the yard like crazy and when I finally got a hold of her I realized that the skunk sprayed her right in the face. You do not know how thankful I am for this.No, that sounded bad. I am thankful the skunk did not get her whole body, I feel horrible it got her face.  I washed her off with Dawn and tomato juice and she is stink free. Now, this is the third time this skunk has been in our yard. I am thinking about calling around tomorrow and trying to find someone to trap it and take it away. Wish it was as easy as calling Billy the Exterminator. One of his shows showed him trapping a skunk and made it look easy. The thing even sprayed the blanket he threw over top of it and he acted like it did not stink to high heaven.  I am very worried that this skunk is going to strike again and what if it is one of my kids next time and not the dog? Does anyone have any experience with something like this? Well, I am off its after 2am and I have a lot to do in the AM.....Night night


S

101 Things

What a better way for readers to get to know me than 100 random questions. Since this is my first blog post I thought it would be a great idea. If you have any other questions just ask away. 

1. Are you in a relationship? Yes, I am now the girlfriend to  my x-husband...lol

2. Favorite candy bar? Reese's Peanut Butter Cups

3. What is your zodiac sign? Aries

4. Summer or Winter? Winter, I hate the heat though I would rather say fall 

5. What kind of cell phone do you have? A blackberry Curve 2 and its purple and awesome

6. Do you have any embarrassing CD's? I would have to say my NKOTB Cd but I am not embarrassed.

7. How many children do you have? All together 5, my biological kids are Sam 18, Tori, 17 and Billy is 12. My step daughters are Crissy 25 and Amanda 22. I also have a granddaughter, Delilah and she is 8 months. I also have a grand baby on the way.

8. Do looks matter? No, they never have 

9. Do you have any pets? I have one pretty pitt, her name is Maggie....She thinks she is a poodle

10. Are you  happy with your life right now? I am the happiest that I have been in a long time, though I have my days.....don't we all?

11. Are you closer to your mother or father?  My mother ....My father lives in NY and I am lucky if I see him 2 times a year. 

12. Do you have a webcam? Yes, it is attached to my laptop

13. Have you ever broken someones heart? Yes, I have and I am not proud of it. 

14. What do you want more than anything right now? To finish school with the grades I have right now and to find a good job.

15. Do you enjoy scary movies? No, not at all. Though to be thoughtful I will watch one every once in a while with Troy.

16. Have you seen all the Rocky Movies? Yes, I actually have ....

18. Edward or Jacob? Team Edward all the way

19. Who was the last person to make you mad? One of my kids

20. Who was the last person to make you cry? Troy 

21. Who was the last person to make you laugh? Delilah, she is the sweetest funniest baby

22. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, what can you touch? Troy, he is sitting next to me on his computer.

23. What is the last thing you watched on TV? The race

24. With the exception to the computer, what can you hear? The Crickets chirping. 

25. What is your favorite color? Any shade of pink....Hot pink especially. 

26. What is your favorite food? Taco Bell or Manicotti 

27. If you became a multi-millionaire over night, what would you buy?   I would buy me a brand new Mustang with all the bells and whistles and Troy any truck he wants. I would buy the girls a new car of their choice. Pay off my house and bills. Open savings accounts for my kids and grand-kids to cover cost of college.  

28. If you could change one thing about the world what would it be? I would make it so every person can afford or get  good health insurance. To many people die because they can not afford to go to the doctor or afford to pay for insurance. 

29. Would you ever consider living abroad? Of course, would be a great learning experience.

30. Who is the last person to call you? Mickey

31. Who was the last person to text you?  Brett

32. Do you have a garden? Yes, I have lots of flowers and tomatoes and peppers growing.

33. If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be? Dale Earnhardt Jr.

34. What is your favorite talk show? The Ellen Show

35. What is the first thing you think about in the morning? Probably that I have to pee....

36. Have you ever ridden on a motorcycle? Yes and I love it

37. What was the last thing you bought at the store? A 12 pack of Dr.Pepper

38. What color is your bedroom carpet? Burgundy ..same color all through the house except the kitchen and bathrooms!

39. If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or  mess, what would you do? I would make the house bigger and redo all the exsisiting walls especially the kitchen and all the carpet.

40. What store would you choose to max out your credit card? Kohls or The Christmas Tree Shoppe

41. How many tattoos do you have? I have four with plans on at least 3 more.

42. When is the last time you ate a homegrown tomato? yesterday

43. Do you know how to pump your own gas? Yes, since most gas stations are self pump. Though I choose to go to the one gas station that has someone do it...I'm kinda lazy lol

44. What is under your bed? A couple of boxes with some of Troys old stuff in it, a box of pictures  and a suitcase. 

45. Think fast, what do you like right now? I'm on a cotton candy kick.

46. What time do you get up? Anytime I want unless I have somewhere to be...This will all change in a couple of weeks when I start my job. 

47. Is there anything going on this weekend? I have a doctors appt on Sat morning and then we are having a bar-be-que on Sunday.

48. Do you sing in the shower? No, Never have. 


50. How many keys on your key ring?  Six

51. What are your best physical features? I am always being told how beautiful my eyes are. 

52. Where did you grow up? Long Island, New York 

53. What are you reading now?  I am reading some stuff on Watt Pad from unknown authors.

54. Are you a morning person or a night owl? A night owl....Its 1:06 and I am still wide awake 

55. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? No,just tried 

56. How many rings before you answer the phone? Depends on what I am doing.

57. What is your best childhood memory? My grandmother , she was the best

58. What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life? Cook, waitress, collections, receptionist, dispatcher, 

59. What is most important in life? My family 

60. How tall are you? 5'2 ...yes I am vertically challenged

61. What was the last text message you received ? It said yeah

62. Do you  prefer to call or text? Text , can do that even when I am busy. 

63. What color is your eyes? Blue

65. What time did you wake up today? 10 ish

66. What are you wearing right now? shorts and a t-shirt

67. Where is your favorite place to be? Bed with my love

68. Where would you go if you could go anywhere? Hawaii

69. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? I always thought there was something living under my bed ....

70. How many TVs do you have in your house? 5

71. How big is your bed? queen size

73. How many pillows do you sleep with? I sleep with three and Troy sleeps with three.

74. How many states provinces have you lived in? two Ny and WV

75. What was the last thing you ate?  a bowel of cereal

76. What is your favorite ice cream? vanilla with chocolate sprinkles

77. What is your favorite restaurant? I am a cheap date. Love me some Chipolte

78. What do you drink in the morning?Coke or sweet tea from McDonald's

80. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? the left side

81. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? No, I always take it off at night.

83. what red object is closest to you right now? A Dr. Pepper can

84. What are five things you can not live without? My cell phone, lip gloss, gum, my ipod touch and food.

85. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? Yes, I have a lead foot!!

86. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you? An old friend surprised me with a few things I really needed. She gave me hope that all people are not so bad.

87. How old will you be in five years? OMG 40 

88. Longest relationship? 18 years and than we split up for a year and we have been back together for 9 months.

89. How many times have you dropped your cell phone? Haha this fits me , I drop it daily. 

90. Last time you attended church? Ummm about 10 years ago. I believe in god, I don't believe in church.

91. What kind of car do you drive? We have three so it depends on the day. Either a 01 Chevy Cavalier, 99 Ford Blazer and a 95 Ford Mustang. Love having no car payments. 

93. Laptop or Desk top computer? I prefer my laptop, its a pretty pink one..Though we do have two desktop computers as well. 

94. Sleep with or without clothes on? tank top and panties.....I can't be naked but I also can not have to much on.

95. How do you like your eggs? Over easy most of the time...but I love a good ham and cheese omelet.

96. Has someone you love ever died? Yes my grandmother, grandfather, aunt and brother:(

97. Do you have a sister? Yes, I do and shes awesome:)

98. Favorite movie? Twilight

99. Least favorite household chore? Its a toss up between laundry and dishes.

100. What is your worst habit? Smoking.....I really want to quit ...really 

101. Is the glass half empty or half full? Half empty