Thursday, January 20, 2011

Thankful Thursday

I am so thankful for my granddaughter. She is the light of my life and makes me happy even on my worst day. When I walk out of the room she cries and real tears flow down her little face. She is a little angel ( well not really seeing as shes into everything already lol) I can not believe that in a little over two months I am going to have another granddaughter and a step grandson. WOW I feel old.

Some Random Pics

She loves cleaning already

Leave me be Grandma

I am going to buy her one of her own :)

My beautiful daughter Sam

Love this pic of Monkey.
Still cleaning lol  
Delilah in the tent she got from Santa

Getting sleepy

RIP Richard

Troys cousin died on Saturday. He was 58 years old. He had a little problem his whole life with the bottle and in the end it killed him. We went to the viewing last night and saw family that we haven't seen in a while. Troys aunt reminds of both so much of his mother, she is now 85 she was very upset that she hasn't died before one of her kids. She has pneumonia and looks so weak. Today is the funeral, this is the first one I am going to since Linda passed away.  Things around here haven't  been the best. Sam and Delilah have moved back in full time and well lets just say, Sam's idea of clean is way  different from my own. Our money issues have really hit hard. All I want to do is get caught up. I do not sit here and wish to win the lottery so I never have to work again, I do not want to go shopping and spend crap loads of money. I just want to be able to pay the bills, buy groceries and get my kids and grand-kids what they need. I never thought at 35, I would have to worry about grandchildren.

I am sorry that I do not post much, not that I have many followers yet. My goal is to post at least once a day even if its just a picture. With work and school and the amount of blogs I follow, its hard to find the time:)

I hope everyone has a great day!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Bubbles all around

Everything always seems better after I get out of a nice hot bath. I have just been so stressed out and tense that I really needed it. The only thing I got done on my to do list today was to go to the grocery store. Tomorrow I need to make sure I get everything done. It is very hard to want to do the same thing every day. Sam lets the baby make such a huge mess. We had words today, I can not hold my tongue anymore when it comes to the baby and Sam's laziness. I am so sick of the constant drama of her and her x boyfriend. For the last two years I have had to worry about how I was going to feed my pregnant daughters.  Money is so tight right now that I do not even know If I am going to have the gas money I need to get back and forth to work this week. I am sick of hearing my kids bitch about the littlest things. I am sick of having a 17 and 18 year old that walk all over me. I am sick of having a husband that can not even lift a finger to put away laundry. I am just plain sick right now. I do not know how much more I can take. I am ready to lose it. Life is to short to feel this way and I am going to make a change. 2011 was supposed to be my year and dammit I am going to do it. Sorry for the vent but I really needed to get it all out.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

The 365 Challenge Day 1

I have decided to try out the 365 challenge. I will post a pic a day every day for the next year. I will still blog as usual but will add this to my day as well. I hope this can make me see some of the things that makes me happy that I might have forgotten. I seem to have misplaced my happiensss. This past year has been rough. Hell, this past 5 years has been rough.
 Troy and I decided we wanted a late night snack. We live in a little town so I was so happy when we found a place that was open at 11:00 pm. I love me some pizza.